Yesterday + hairtalk (help me!🆘️)

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I'm a little sick for a few days

just a cold

but yesterday I gave up on trying to be OK and left work early(-_-;) I went home to rest and do some self care

going out for a bit to buy some essentials 

I did some stuff around the house but in a chill way

since I'm already having pms I'm kinda hormonal so I did that to relax and distract myself

I took a shower and washed my hair and then did some skincare (had a blackhead that was annoying me for a few days but no more w)

some body lotion

fixing my nails

just the usual self care stuff

I felt so much better after that

then Hatul came home

and I feel like I haven't seen him for a few days cause of work and cause I was at my parents for the weekend and I really missed him

we just cuddled on the couch and watched Seinfeld until we both fell asleep w

then when I woke up I was like 

oh shit I have to blowdry my hair!!

so I did w

I have a new device at home that we bought recently that completely changed my life

it's a dehumidifier 

it's 20ml and it's perfect for lowering the humidity levels inside the apartment 

cause it gets really horrible in winter on rainy days

sooo while I was blowdrying my hair and before falling asleep in bed I thought about what to do with my hair next~

I've been bleaching it for 2 full years and dying it pink

and it definitely took it's toll on my hair cause it's super damaged and dry and broken

especially cause I've been styling it with heat

I really tried in the last few months to take some actions that will help it like using less heat, using good hair products and sleeping with silk cover

but it's obviously doesn't fix the dead hair just preventing further damage (at least partially)

and tbh?

I miss having good hair,

like full and shiny and strong 

and I'm thinking 

should I stop bleaching?

(._.)

you know what this means right?

no more pink hair( ´△｀)

now, as much as I love my pink hair

I feel like my style lately is more of an otonappoi style, and in a way, I feel like a darker color might actually fit it even

I always loved the look of dark hair + tan on gals

it always looks really healthy and glowy

and I'm thinking maybe?

maybe...?...

also not sure about the tone

warmer? colder?

I'm thinking warmer will probably be better since my natural hair's undertone is warm anyway

wanna go for this haircut too

it scares me for a few reasons:

1. what if I hate it

2. I wouldn't be able to go lighter for a long time after dying it so it's a commitment 

3. in the beginning it might look horrible cause my hair has no shine from bleaching and dark hair that it's shineless looks so ugly

4. what if my style looks boring after that? especially my everyday style

my hair appointment is in 2 weeks and I want to decide until then

Sharon will faint when I tell her I wanna stop having pink hair w(´；ω；`)

but it's only cause of the bleaching!

my hairline is all broken from bleaching 

I hate those little hairs and hate the frizzing 

I wanna look like this

I want to be able to style it less with heat cause it won't bend so much all the time cause it will actually ace some natural elasticity www

one last thing is

I'm wondering about this color option as well

it's really cute and I wonder if it requires bleaching..

I have to talk to Sharon I guess 

but what do you think.

should I stop having pink hair?

should I go darker?

help

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